Last weekend, I participated in a three-day Ayahuasca ceremony. This was my second time working with this plant medicine and its effects were profound. My first ceremony was about 2.5 years ago. Concerned with judgment, I have not publicly shared the deeply moving and healing experiences I’ve had. However, I can no longer stay silent. I believe that sharing will benefit others and myself, as I work to integrate as a fully authentic being. I am stepping out of my self-imposed closet to share my open-mind and open-heart… poco a poco.
This may be new to you – it was to me too a few years ago. But after seeing truth and value in many things that I once considered to be wrong or unfamiliar, I have learned to keep an open-mind. I hope that you can too.
About ten years ago, I was diagnosed with PTSD after just two visits with a therapist. While therapy is great for some, I was not interested in weekly visits or anti-depressants. Instead I sought to heal myself, trying everything from natural to synthetic substances, yoga, meditation, sound healing, journaling, personalized ritual, self-reflection, reading metaphysical and spiritual texts, holotropic breathwork, visiting ashrams and temples, and more. All of these have been valuable, but plant medicines have been among the fastest acting and most powerful in terms of self-realization and mental health.
Plant medicines are any consumable plant with medicinal properties such as ginger root and turmeric. However, my concern here is with psychoactive plants that are not commonly accepted such as Psilocybin (shrooms), Ibogaine, Ayahuasca, San Pedro, Rapé, and many others. There is so much talk already around Marijuana that I have little interest in discussing it now. And before reacting to the “psychoactive” property, please remember that caffeine and alcohol are psychoactive as well.
Iboga, a plant found in Africa, has the potential to kick a long-term heroin addiction in a single dose. If it were to become legal, it would go a long way toward solving a major social crisis – yet it is not. Why? Because it has the potential to shut down much of the pharmaceutical and rehabilitation industries and so it remains an illicit substance in the United States.
Of course there are risks with these medicines, but equal and often greater risks exist with currently legal pharmaceuticals which hold far less healing power than what I’m discussing here. A main difference between these plants and pharmaceuticals like Prozac or Lithium is that nature does not have rich and powerful lobbyists influencing governmental actions, whose aims are often greed and societal control. Prozac and Lithium require a lifetime of use and are more numbing than healing. They limit the experience of life while these plants broaden it.
Rather than numbing, these plants allow us to feel. We’re able to bypass the limitations of our current mental and emotional states in order to experience deep love and connection, often for the first time in our lives – gaining a reference point for these feelings which remain accessible after the medicine wears off. But then, who would pay for Prozac?
In addition to their healing properties, there is the expansion of consciousness to be acknowledged. As part of this deep psychological work, I have transcended into planes beyond this 3-dimensional construct that we find ourselves in. These are important experiences that tune us into our spiritual nature, that allow us to explore our unconscious minds where our issues lie and to dissolve layers of tension and conditioning, leading to much richer and fulfilling lives.
We are more powerful than we know and it is our right to have these mystical experiences. It is our right to commune with nature. It is our right explore the world around us. There is so much more here!
Working with plants responsibly can bring about great healing. Abusing them can bring about sadness and sickness. I have experienced each end of this spectrum as both the abuser who has made herself sick and the one who has been healed. If these medicines were legal, closely monitored, treated with respect, and more widely available, there would be far more healing and much less sickness.
I am not here to glamorize this – I am here to spread the truth. I do not share this without reservation – I have been frightened to do so, but I’ve grown tired of governmental control, misrepresentation, and closed mindedness. These medicines should be made safely available as options within a holistic treatment plan.
Because of my own progress and what I have witnessed in others, I feel it is my duty to share my experiences. My next three posts will be: my first experience with Ayahuasca in 2015, San Pedro last year, Rapé, and my most recent journey last weekend.
To be continued…