It wasn’t the most comfortable choice. I feel so much absence, but it’s the reality that I chose and that I accept. I am grateful that I’ve learned how to be present with myself regardless of my external circumstances. That I’ve learned to appreciate all facets of life, not just the good times. That I’m letting go of the need to change things.
Today is a self-imposed lesson – I’m learning not to numb-out, not to avoid the reality that I’ve chosen. I’m choosing to feel today. To feel the amazingness that is my life, along with the isolation that sometimes comes with it. To remain present through it all.
I am also grateful for the little community that I’m starting to cultivate here in Asheville. I’m grateful for the local invites I’ve received for dinner tonight. And I’m thankful that I get to spend the evening with a new friend and her tribe.
Most of all, I’m thankful for all of you. For what is this life without connection? Thank you for the mark each of you have made on my life so far. I feel all of you today. I love you.