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Energy Body

I referenced the energy body in a previous post of mine and a friend asked me to say more. I’ve been wanting to write about some of my experiences for a while so I thought I’d put together a whole post about it. I made notes during my practice today and here’s what I’ve got.
The energy body is a system of the body as real as any other system such as the respiratory system, nervous system, digestive system, etc. It essentially functions as an interface between the mind and the body.
It is made up of energetic lines, like invisible circuitry in the body. These are “nadis” in yoga and “meridians” in Traditional Chinese Medicine. They are “subtle energies” because it usually requires stillness and awareness to feel them. Once you tap into them, you notice a lot of information is stored here through thoughts and emotions around your life experiences. When this energy is blocked through psychological hangups and physical ailments, the energy no longer flows freely. There is a lack of ease… a dis-ease… the beginning of disease.
My experience.
I practiced yoga for ~7-10 years before actually understanding the energy body. There were often vague and incomplete references to the chakras in my yoga classes, often accompanied by a lack of grounding or experiential wisdom so none of it really landed with me. Then I read Eastern Body Western Mind by Anodea Judith. She’s an expert on the energy body and marries eastern and western understanding of the body and psychology, leading to a more holistic understanding of the mind’s presence throughout the body and its effects. She has other books like Wheels of Life, which is simpler, but I think EBWM is her best.
While in Ecuador, I had a few experiences in meditation and also a more dramatic kundalini experience during yoga which I will share about another time. I was also learning reiki on YouTube (ha! :)) and became tuned into the energy centers of each hand. I will describe them as send and receive swirls with a magnetic-like pull.
In India, I spontaneously left my body, saw auras, had meaningful dreams and visions, heard messages, and more. I soon went to a vipassana meditation retreat and felt the actual vibration of each part of my body. (I wrote about this – if anyone has interest, I can find the link to that write up.) I was sober for all of this. Other people have also helped tune me in through healings and conversations. Fortunately things have calmed down since it was overwhelming but I’m still in touch with much of this. When I’m laying still, I can feel the subtle, and sometimes not-so-subtle vibration of my body. It hums.
It does not have to take 7 years to understand this. Here is how I’d suggest connecting with the energy body:
1. Learn About It.
Prepare for it intellectually by reading or listening to teachers discuss it.
2. Invite It.
Engage in energetic practices like yoga, meditation, reiki, and other energetic practices.
3. Experience It. Knowing it in your body, first-hand.
Once you are intellectually prepared/informed, expect “aha” moments to occur in the experiential realm of learning.
Practice mindfulness of the body while experiencing strong emotions. Do this more and more often – check in with yourself.
You can feel the stream of energy in the movement of yoga or the stillness of meditation. You can actually feel it all the time if you’re tuned into it.

Flower Essences

Flower Essences.
I hemorrhaged after giving birth. I was panicked & in fear as the midwife stopped the bleeding. She released 4 drops of a tincture on my tongue. In seconds, I was calm, centered & back in my body. It was a magic potion… She said it was Rescue Remedy.
I discovered later that it is a flower essence widely available at natural food stores because it works, yet it’s easy to dismiss as a real remedy.
Essences are made by placing a flower into spring water soaking in the sun for several hours to record the energetic trace of the bloom. The water is then preserved in brandy. Each flower has different qualities and works on the subtle level of your emotional body.
I was gifted a blend after my mother died but didn’t understand what I was receiving then. I wasn’t experienced in recognizing or working with subtle energies & did not take it. Years later, I awakened to my energy body while deep in my yoga and meditation practice in Ecuador, continuing in Rishikesh. Now my energy body is as real to me as my physical body.
To have them work so immediately and palpably in the middle of a hemorrhage was all I needed to believe in their power to affect my emotional state.
A few months ago, I saw a healer for neck trouble I was having. She used muscle testing, flower essences, chiropractic adjustments, and intuition. I was healed on many levels, including the removal of energetic blocks I’ve carried since I was child.
Recently, I received Bach’s Mother Essences and have been fascinated at what I’ve experienced & witnessed. Now I’m trying to make my own from flowers and spring water collected here on the land. Here is what I’ve gathered and the qualities they are said to invoke.
*Rhododendron – Grounding, unconditional love, inner balance, nurturance, comfort, compassion
*Hydrangea – Alleviates a scattered mind, opens throat chakra, strengthens concentration
*Bee Balm – Energy generator, passion to carry out projects, joy & inspiration
*Echinacea – Calming nerve tonic, increases awareness, deprograms old patterns, higher-self alignment, restores wholeness
*Red Clover – Internally generated behavior instead of group thought, calm and steady presence

Expressions

Expressions

Often a bold passion’s felt
The desire to express oneself
May you always share this wealth
With an open mind and heart
Not everyone will approve of you
But there’s nothing for them that you can do
That’s for them to self-pursue
While you make art from life
No one else can shut you down
It’s up to you to stand your ground
Remember you’re not lost, but found
Within the wellsprings of your soul
I pray that you stay always true
To the spirit dwelling inside of you
Of all the hurts, there’s nothing new
On the surface of this earth
Let the years roll on, my love
Life has nothing to tire of
Just keep your eyes fixed up above
The clamour of this world
Something unique inside your soul
Yearns for you to release control
In the end, there is no goal
But a life that’s well expressed
♡♡♡

Into The Flow

Yes,
I’ll take you with me
Into the flow,
Sweet Baby.
I need to move!
I need to stretch!
The music grooves.
Vinyasa!
But then a small cry
So I don’t even try.
We both know
This is really your flow.
You don’t want stillness.
And so yoga becomes
A booty-shaking
Dance party!
I can dance all night.
And we do for a while,
But when you say “nay”
Momma knows.
You want to lay down
And suckle the hour away.
Both of us lulled into
This milky flow.
I bring you to my chest,
Latched to my breast
Where we slip into
A most DIVINE rest.
And I don’t mind
Giving you my time.
Just grateful to know
That together we flow.

Seeing The Divine Masculine

I’m not exactly sure why I feel compelled to share this today but after a very clear-thinking shower this morning, it seems necessary somehow. When I was younger, I was constantly hit on by creeps. Close friends would joke about my strange magnetism and all the “alphas” I’d pull in. That doesn’t happen anymore and I don’t think it’s because I’m older or less attractive. I believe it’s because my vibration is entirely different. When I was younger, I walked around with a strong, but false confidence. It was my crab shell – my defense. But, underneath it was a lack of self worth and a deep need for male validation along with deeply programmed beliefs about men. You see, as a child I felt abandoned and disappointed by the masculine. Several of the adult women in my life told me that “men only want one thing”. More specifically, my mother would tell me that the (good) men in my life were around only because of my sexual offerings. These were the energies that surrounded me as I moved through the world and so I pulled in my vibrational matches. Prey needs predators. Through the practice of self-study/svadhyaya, I have grown leaps and bounds over the last twenty years. I have come to see this deep conditioning. And through my work with plant medicine, I have come to know my inherent value as a child of God. Thank you Mother Ayahuasca for embedding a deep sense of self-worth at a cellular level that has remained over the last three years. Through my real-world experiences and clear-eyed evaluation of past relationships, I have come to know and respect many men who are modeling the divine masculine. These men do not move through life as predators, but as lovers and protectors of all that is sacred within me. My vibration has changed. Now I attract lovely “hellos”, genuine interest, and true friendship from men. I have grown and so have the people I’m surrounded by. Again, I’m not sure why I needed to share this today, but hopefully this reflection speaks to someone. With so much love for me, and for you… Blessings on your day and your life. XO

P.S. On February 20th, there is a call to share our stories with the hashtag #thankyouplantmedicine
I will be sharing some of my past blog posts on social media and I look forward to hearing some of your stories too.